I wanted a place where I could put all my doubts and fears and figure them out, so here it goes. My fiancee has a penchant for helping people… He has a beautiful, giving heart. I saw him help my sister and cousel her when she wouldn’t open up to me. But when I saw him start to exhibit the same kind of effort into a close female friend of both of ours, I got very jealous. In fact, I overreacted so much, I wondered if our relationship was over… the love of my life.
I know shes been texting him every day. He never hides these texts and in fact always shares them with me. And eventually I expressed to him that I didn’t like how wrapped up he seemed with her.
He’s not an artist like I am, which is difficult for me because even though he’s a romantic through and through, he doesn’t always express his feelings enough to me. So these texts he sent me are a big deal.
I keep having to tell myself, its me that he drives two hours a day to see. Its me that he wants to spend his life with, have babies with. Its me he calls and talks to sometimes ten hours a day and that he spoils when I go away on trips with loads of presents when I come back. Its my every word that he hangs on… not hers.
And he’s always been brutally honest with me.
But did he send me this to prove it to himself that our connection is stronger than theirs? Or because he really felt it?
Or am I overreacting completely?
… Am I horrible person for questioning him when I really don’t need to?